Time is frustrating. Makes me angry, annoyed. Confuses things. Changes things. Happier without time. Easier without time. A year ago everything different. Everything so old. Distant. Fleeting memories, float in and out of the banks of mind. Gradually depleting. Losing faces, losing moments, losing words. Slowly slipping away. But. Gaining faces. Gaining moments. Gaining words. New, exciting, different. Life changing. I’m changing. Not bad. Just different. Change, difference; hard. A year ago. A year ago everything different. Find it hard to believe. Not as happy then. Not as mature then. A year ago I hated life. A year ago I stayed inside. A year ago I didn’t talk. Didn’t move. Didn’t breath. Now, life. Now happy. Like living in now. But can’t always. Hard to hold onto now. Easy to live in past or future. Easier to replay. Easier to dream. Harder to face reality. Not impossible. Just hard. Has been hard. Each day to now. Difficult. But. Got easier. Each day. Day after day after day. Little by little. Easier. Just a tiny bit. But enough. Enough to keep going. I almost didn’t make it.
Glad I did.
Time won’t go away. Won’t stop. Will continue making things hard. But. Day after day. Will get easier.
