I was about to start writing an apology for not updating recently, but then I thought, why the hell should I apologise?
This blog, if you can even call it that, is something I do for enjoyment, it’s something i update when I want to express my view or position on a certain issue, or jsut explore different ideas. As soon as I start making it about shcedules and appeasing the masses of readers I have (cough, choke), I’m replacing the purpose of the blog.
I’m a big believer in doing things because you enjoy them, not because you have to. Of course, we must all earn a crust, and work hard for the things we want, but there simply must be enjoyment in all of our lives. I believe there is a desperate need in every person, a need to do something that is purely enjoyment, purely because it’s something you want to do to amke yourself happy, or satisfied. I don’t even know where I’m going with this, but you know what? I enjoy writing, so I’m going to keep exploring this until I am satisfied.
I take time to enjoy myself, I do. I don’t know, however, whether I am taking enough time. I’ve never been content witht he amount of time I’m taking for myself, and I’ve never felt I’m enjoying myself enough. On the flipside however, there have been moments where I have recognised as taking too much time out for myself, and not working enough, be it school work, paid work or any other kind of work. To me, there is never a balance, and I have never met anyone else who is balanced in this way either. I think even the richest of the rich end up making up chores to occupy themselves when they ahve too much time on their hands.
This is an interesting thought, for me anyway, because from my experience, and the few experiences shared with me by others, it looks like we are doing this wrong. Maybe we have all screwed up in the establishment of the average life, maybe we miscalculated the ratio of work to fun; worse still, maybe we made the mistake of assuming that the work we are doing is the appropriate method of gaining money. What if we weren’t actually supposed to be working crappy jobs we hate to make a terrible wage to spend on bills and have just enough left over to barely survive? What if we were all supposed to enjoy our work, and through that be content with the amount of money we make? I know that will almost certainly never happen, but maybe it could have. I like to think that there is a person for every position, that there is a perfect fitting applicant for each job in existence.
Now, I know as I’m writing this that it’s pretty meaningless. It’s not as if things could ever reach this level of utopia. The real reason, I think, for me writing this article has only now become clear, after I have left it for a couple fo days to brew. What are we doing? What are we doing with the life we have? This is probably cliché but I don’t care. Why are so many of us wasting so much of our time? So much of what we do is pointless, so many tasks we complete have the endgame in picture. We should be doing more to make life worth living, not experiencing more of life, but actively making it something we can enjoy.
I want to issue you a challenge, and not in a way in which you look at your life for 5 minutes and forget about what you have just read. I want to issue a real challenge for those that are strong enough to accept it. Do something. Do something, anything to enjoy yourself. Not just once, but ten times, twenty times, as many times as you need to change your life into something you enjoy. I know, I know, this post is going to sound pathetic to a lot of you. I hope, though, that the rest of you can see something in this, and can take some more enjoyment from the life you are living. Your life is your own, your decisions are determining your experience of it. So make those decisions count, not for wealth, not for power, but for yourselves.