I have now spent a lot of time wondering what the hell I want out of my life. It seems that every time I start thinking about this extremely clichéd question, the problem becomes more confusing and more annoying to try and answer. This is why I am going to present for your evaluation, my life capacity equation. I should note that this is not for everyone, and it certainly isn’t my attempt to figure out the “meaning of life”, it’s merely an evaluation tool. The equation is as follows: W * H – S^2= L.
W
W stands for “What I want in life”. This can be as detailed or as simple as I want, but to truly work out this equation, it’s best to be as comprehensive as possible. For me, and the purpose of this exercise, I will enter in three items: happiness, a steady income, and close friends. In this instance, 3 items means that W = 3. So now the equation is as follows: 3 * H – S^2 = L.
H
H stands for “How I am getting what I want”. Here, it is required that I be as honest as possible to accurately solve this equation. For H, I need to list the things that I am actively doing to get the things listed under W. I must remember to be as honest as possible, and ruthless too. For example, I have a part-time job, but this does not count towards my goal of attaining a steady income, purely because if my goal is such, then clearly my part-time job is inadequate in fulfilling this goal. For the purpose of illustration, I will note down that I am currently doing 3 things to attain W: studying at university, maintaining my relationships and ensuring that my hobbies are getting enough time. (note that I did not use separate entries for each of my hobbies – ruthless) The equation now reads: 3 * 3 – S^2 = L.
S^2
S is simple: “What is stopping me from achieving my goals?” It is important for me to list things only that I am actively doing to stop myself from achieving my goals. The idea here is that the capacity to which you live is not suppressed by something that is out of your control, because this is not diminishing your persistence in living. It may harbour your success, but it is not stopping your effort and desire to try. Examples here are being lazy, spending my money frivolously, and not taking advantage of my studies. This value is 3, I will now have the equation: 3 * 3 – S^2 = L
The Equation
L = (3 * 3) – (S^2)
L = 9 – 9
L = 0
This number (L) indicates that I am not doing anything to further my goals, but I am not doing anything to hamper my achievements either. The result is interpreted as follows: a negative value indicates that you are moving away from your goals and dreams, a positive value indicates that you are moving towards your goals. The number relative to either side of the scale indicates the intensity by which you are moving towards or away from your goals.
Had I only had a value of 2 in place of S, then the result would have been 5, indicating that I am slowly moving towards my goals.
However, this result is intended to show to what capacity you are living to. Therefore, if you have only one goal, you are minimising the potential for your result to be of a positive, or higher positive number. This reflects the idea that by only having few goals, you are not maximising the potential to which you are living.
This equation is in it’s infancy, therefore, imperfect. Feedback would be most welcome.